Last week I packed my bags and jetted off to Hawaii for a wedding! It was my first time on any of the Hawaiian Islands, and I went a few days early to explore Oahu solo before joining up with the group. After the hustle and bustle of NYFW (more posts are still coming), it was such a treat to relax and embrace the slower pace of island life. The only thing I couldn’t get used to was the incredibly low speed limits, haha!
This swimsuit is absolutely my favorite. Small-busted girls, it’s time to rejoice: it comes in XXS! While the bikini top didn’t have any padding, it was very flattering and fit my 32A bust without any gapping. 🙂
I feel like I need to be completely honest here… while I did my best to play it cool, it took a lot for me to be okay wearing a bikini on this trip, let alone take these photos for you all to see. I actually rushed through the photo-taking process because I was so self-conscious about shooting this look with my group of friends right around the corner.
If you breeze through my past outfit posts, you’ll notice that I consistently pick silhouettes that flatter my petite frame, but also never “showcase” anything, either. Aside from the body-con skirt I wore in my previous post (which I covered up with a loose-fitting top), I have always shied away from anything form-fitting because I’ve never been comfortable with my body.
Being a late bloomer in practically every sense, I watched girls in high school and college develop into beautiful women with curves and legs for days, while I, sadly, remained the same. Even though those years are long gone and I did eventually “bloom,” the insecurities still linger. I look in the mirror and I still see who I was and what I looked like 10 years ago, rather than the woman I am today.
This hasn’t been easy to admit in writing, but I hope this is a step in the right direction to start seeing myself more clearly. If any of you dear readers are comfortable and willing to share, what insecurities did you have/how did you overcome them, or what are you still working to overcome?
Outfit details
Bikini: c/o Triangl
Cover Up: Seafolly (love this one + extra 25% off with code INTHEFAM25)
Necklace: & Other Stories (old)
Bracelets: Jawbone UP2 activity tracker
Photographer: Tsz Chan
6 Comments
Hi Christina! I want to start out by saying that you look AMAZING! I know you probably get this a lot, but you have absolutely nothing to be ashamed or insecure about. I know that insecurities are deeper rooted than that and are hard to shake if they come from years of thinking. It seems like they sort of become part of your DNA, no matter what you might look like down the road!
I’ve always struggled with insecurities as well. I have a really long torso, large booty and thick, muscular, short-ish legs with ankles that are as wide as my calves and offer NO tape (thanks genetics). Also, I have total man hands that dwarf most of the guy’s hands i’ve dated. It’s been hard getting over these problems because no matter how much weight I lose, it seems like my butt and legs appear the same but my top half shrinks and appears unbalanced. Only until very recently did I realize that life was too short to worry about things you can’t help. It’s not like I can ever get hand replacement surgery, or cankle reduction surgery. A body is a body and you need to love and take care of it instead of being embarrassed by it. I saw this quote recently that said “treat your body as if it belonged to someone you love” which sort of flips the situation around a little bit. Would you care if your BFF was a “late bloomer” or had cankles and a bubble butt? Those things make us unique and stand out, girl 🙂 You look beautiful!
October 15, 2015 at 9:23 amHi Christina,
You completely rocked the shoot!! The bikini is super cute and very flattering! I completely relate to all your thoughts here on being body conscious and I think it’s really great that you stepped out of your comfort zone and challenged yourself, with great results!! =) Thanks for inspiring me!
October 15, 2015 at 2:50 pmYou’re soooooo pale!!!! Go to Ala Moana mall
October 15, 2015 at 10:27 pm[…] this milestone, I wanted to shoot a look that was more special than my usual. And coming off of my previous post where I opened up about my insecurities, I felt it was also right to push myself to explore what […]
October 28, 2015 at 6:17 amThanks for being so honest in this post.
October 31, 2015 at 3:45 pmWell written post, and that two piece looks great on you! I can relate to you, being a petite gal myself, I do still envy having curves that grown women should have. But I have learned to embrace my small boyish frame, because it’s so awesome to still be able to shop in the children’s section and save money! ^_^
Victoria
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